Pathetic.

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Day 3 - Your Parents

You guys are amazing. I'm so grateful for everything you guys have given me and I can never tell you how much i love you. I'm sorry for many of the things i've done in the past, my stupid mistakes, and i've learned so much from it. I've learned that I was pretty stupid back then, and you guys were always there for me. Throughout everything. And thank you for that. You guys have given me everything, m y life, a roof over my head, and food on the table. x3 You guys work so hard to keep this family and i'm here to help out now. And the way i am now, is because of you guys, you've raised me into a woman, a lady, someone who has respect, mature, and smart. thank you x3

Day 2 - Your Crush

I hate myself for liking you. I think that you're an amazing guy, but I know so much about you that can hurt me. I know you so well that I am completley use to every move you make, every step you have in mind. You can be the best guy in the world, but also one of the worse probably. And I am not sure if I want that. I always told myself, i don't like you, I'm just thinking stupidly. But in reality i was denying it, i was trying to avoid it, but in the last few nights i've realized i've completely fell in like with you. That you are always constantly on my mind. I try not to think about you but the mor i try the more in reality i'm just thinking about you. And i don't know if you like me, and i'm not sure either if i'm just a booty call. But I am hoping Im not, and I'm really hoping you'll do something that'll hurt me. Something that will make me hurt so much, i don't like you...I really wish you'd do something like that. Because i don't want to be in lilke wiht you, I don't like this feeling. I just feel as if the more i talk to you the more i want to be with you.The more you hold me the more I want to stay in your arms...it's just not worth it all..

I try to delete you off everything, my phone everything, but it's not use, nothing works. It's just so hard, once ive gotten rid of you,you will appear out of no where..it's outrageous...but I'm hoping the best for you...

So soon..

Now, you've showed me that she's in your heart..which is good..i mean, it makes things a lot easier on me...

Honestly, it hurts, i want to be the girl you're thinking of, but apparently, i'm not so i have to live with the truth...and i'm glad you posted that on facebook because now i know, for sure, we can never be together...

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

You've always been there for me, regardless of what has happened. We have been friends since we were in diapers, and nothing has ever changed that. And i'm happy about it. I apreciate you for all the things you've done for me, all the times i truly needed a friend, you were there. No matter how far apart we were. Our moments together are unforgettable. We have the silliest nights, day, weeks, months, years. x3 We can be bored for hours, and we'd be fine with it. Haha.

Truthfully, i can never find anyone as good as you. We fight, we argue, but there's just so much that happens that, that's nothing. We hate each other at times, but in the end we always make up. I'm happy our friendship has last this long, and still going on, you'll obviously always be with me, and always will be my best friend, my sister, my wifle haha. Nothing can change that. And I'll always be there for you with you need me, like the way you were always there for me.

Loves you.

The 30 Day Letters Challege

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Tough times...

I never realized it, but i do like him...but so much just so much about him makes me not want to like him. So much i know about him that i know can hurt me, yet i keep going forward. I keep seeing him, i still talk to him...i tell myself, don't im, don't text him, delete him out of your life because he's just going to hurt you. I delete him, i find ways to still see what he's been up too, and find ways to just text him...

it's crazy how al of this happen..
he can be very sweet and caring and romantic, but at the same time...just a plain old horndog..someone just looking for sex...it hurts too. I"m not sure which one it is....

I'm just plain old confused..hahha

Laters.